warning, this will be overemotional.

do you know that feeling when,
there's something you know you're going to have to do,
but you just don't think you can do it.
and,
you try and imagine how it's going to happen when you won't know how to handle it.

do you sometimes get the feeling that,
you might be completely wrong about just about everything,
and the way you've been living,
is a way you might really regret sometime later.

when i think about all the things that are important to me now,
and i know that in the grand scope of things, even in the grand scope of my own life they maybe won't matter so much. but i just don't want that to happen.

sometimes i just want to cry about everything that isn't right, and also cry because of the things that i feel are really right but have to end, and cry knowing that later on i'll wonder why i ever cried, and cry knowing that the way i feel now, even though it aches, is a feeling i want to keep but i can't. because i'm going to move on. and everybody's going to move on. and i'm going to learn and see how foolish it was to feel this way. and things will just keep on going and going. nothing will even matter like it does now.

so what does matter you know.
that's just what i'm feeling.