i've been on spring break and sort of busy.
i don't really like school that much but it could be worse, you know.
anyways,
something sort of interesting happened to me yesterday. well okay you know when people just ask you "when was the last time you cried" and most of the time you can say "oh gosh like a few months ago during that one really sad movie" or "when i was leaving my friends" or something like that but my friends asked me in school today and the answer was actually yesterday. which was strange for some reason.
i dont like to be emotional. because i used to be wayyy too emotional. and i dont like how i used to be at all. so it was very strange but i started crying for the dumbest reason... like we were playing sports outside and i just was trying really hard but i kept making our team lose. i dont know why but it was just very sad and frustrating to me. it wasn't anything important at all.
so that made me think like, am i hiding something or acting in a way that i'm not? i guess i'd rather be emotional then pretend not to be if i really am. well i dont know about that actually.
sometimes i just wonder if i'm being someone different than i really am. and it kinda freaks me out. i sort of wish i knew myself better, but at the same time i kinda like not thinking about it.
do you know what i mean?
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you know, if you stifle your sneeze it's not really good for your body, technically because you risk the fluids and stuff reversing into your body and going places they're not supposed to, like your eardrums or your sinuses and stuff. i mean it's rare, but one day it could happen to someone who always does it.
ReplyDeleteand there's some similar thing with yawning, though probably not as dramatic. it's good for your brain.
and peeing.
anyway, maybe it's the same with your emotions, don't you think so?
like maybe your Upset, instead of leaving you, will stay in your body and infect places it's not supposed to, instead of harmlessly spreading into the air like a sneeze.
as long as they're not aimed at anyone haha
anyway i like you
i find music helps,
ReplyDeleteor doing things that you really enjoy doing.