She also has a lot of issues because this condition extends into her emotional life: she also feels emotionally what other people feel and therefore becomes so involved in their lives that she completely loses her own sense of identity. She described herself as having these moments where she couldn't figure out if she ended up somewhere as a result of her own desires or as a result of being completely lost in someone else's.
This made me think a lot... because I feel like that too sometimes, just not as extreme.
I get really wrapped up in the people around me. Sometimes I'll just hang around people even if I'm really tired or have a lot I need to do just because I'll feel like... responsible to contribute to the people's happiness around me or.. because other people want to keep doing stuff or because we're having fun. And it's not like I'm consciously setting aside my own desires, it's just that they don't really exist at that point in time. And sometimes at the end of the night I'll wonder how I even ended up doing whatever I did.
And sometimes when I talk to someone one-on-one, I'll feel so present and involved that afterwards I just feel so drained... like I just gave a part of myself away or something. I'm not trying to be dramatic, that's just the closest way I can think of to describing it.
That's why I like to have friends that I'm comfortable with or that I really trust... because if I trust them, then I don't have to worry about getting really wrapped up in them.. if my dreams become their dreams and my desires become their desires then that's not a bad thing. I feel happy going in the same direction as them. But sometimes, if I'm around people who I don't really trust, then I start to feel really anxious, like I could be doing something wrong.
It's weird. I get really confused thinking about it.
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Susan Durges exposed her paper under water and used the light shining through the water and shadows of tree branches hanging over the water to get these prints:
The Entanglement story was really interesting I just listened to it. I feel like I can definitely relate, not to the same extent as the woman in the story, but I notice when seeing someone in pain I also feel pain or in movies when characters get hurt for a split second sometimes I feel like I was also stabbed or something.
ReplyDeleteI think some people are more sensitive to it than others, like the scientist in the beginning was saying. All people naturally feel what others feel, it's just that some people have there sensors over tuned, and I guess also some people have under tuned senors (sociopaths).
Also I feel like this applies to all aspects of life, not just with people. Everything that we interact with effects us, whether we realize it or not.
I feel like as human beings we are given senses like this as a natural way for us to treat each other better. Also maybe to help us understand God as well. He feels everything we feel, we are made in his likeness.
anyway. Thanks for the post.
I hope I fall into the non-draining non-anxiety causing group.